You do not realize how time escapes you until you feel as though there is not enough time in the world.
I remember sitting in my high school English class like it was yesterday and thinking to myself, time is slow. Only thinking of what I wanted to escape from.
Now I'm sitting and thinking to myself, time is passing too fast. How fast the days go by and hence why I haven't posted to this blog I started 7 weeks ago. When I started this blog, I thought writing would be easy. I thought that my thoughts would flow onto paper as well as they do on my drive every day to school. But they didn't. My thoughts and reflections instead stalling in my head.
I have so much to say, and yet feel as though there is no way to say it. I think that’s why people choose not to write, or be honest, or tell their loved ones they love them. There is often difficulty in communicating one’s thoughts. I tell my husband often that time is going too fast, and that’s the end. I never elaborate really, because I can't. There is no way to describe how I feel out loud, and there is no way to quantify the feeling of time escaping you. Maybe the only way to describe it is that of trying to grasp the air or hold onto the memory that eventually will fade, or enjoying the melancholy brought forth on a rainy day.
I know. I'm young. And therefore have all the time in the world. But I'm learning all too well that the time goes fast; days and years passing, and in the blink of an eye, you no longer have all the time in world. One minute, one hour, one day, one year, one decade, gone.
I hope to one day, look back upon my life, and feel as though my time was well spent and therefore, I’m paying attention more. I'm breathing more. I'm trying to remain present in my emotions, and in my thoughts and in both the comfortable and uncomfortable. I'm trying.
I encourage you to do the same. Take a minute. Breathe. Take a minute. Look out the window and admire the sunset. Take a minute. Breathe. I know you want to pick up your phone. But don't. Take a minute and breathe.
Every minute counts. Spend it wisely, and go tell someone you love them.